Sometimes at night it asks me to use him as a form of companionship with the inanimate. I say no. He cannot hold me the way that I need, He is only an it.

Where are our Gay bell hooks’? Did we lose you to the epidemic? The love guru that will unlock the door to how men coexist with each other. Not a bromance, but an actual romance that transcends the current ideas of love. Does love surpass our man-made gender constructs? 

 At 20, I find myself thinking about where I am going to be when I am 30. Will I have kids? Will I be married? Will I be loving what I am doing through and through? Will I be happy? Will I find love?